I remember when there were parts of me that no one saw, or wanted to see, all because I chose to hesitantly be partial in all aspects of life.
More than anything, I remember playing a part I didn’t truly want because it was agreeably easier than playing a part that was honest. Being known for all the things I wasn’t entirely, was painful and exhausting. Being someone you aren’t and playing a false part will grow old, all things comfortable eventually do. And yes, becoming who you are, and who you have inevitable always been- is everything but comfortable. Some of the most rewarding things I’ve experienced as of late, entails reaching so far into anything uncomfortable and all things new.
Do it. Do it with all the support in the world, or with absolutely none at all. Because eventually the longing in you will eat away at all the things you know to be true about yourself. Fester and relish in all parts of yourself that are unwaveringly true, because there are few people who will adore the stillness in your actions and the love that reminisces on everything you do and say.
I was not made for everyone, and neither were you. The people you and I were made for will not ever suppress the tender parts of your heart. My people, my tribe, do not take advantage of my sensitive soul and the fact that I wear my heart on my sleeve each day. Instead of running from what we are worried and ultimately feel so uncomfortable about, run towards the things you know to be true about yourself.
— I’VE COME TO REALIZE THAT I STILL EXPERIENCE A LOT OF HIGHS AND LOWS IN LIFE, AND EVEN DAY TO DAY. I’VE FINALLY ACCEPTED THE FACT THAT SENSITIVE IS EXACTLY HOW I WAS MADE AND I’M NOT ASHAMED OF IT OR FEEL THE NEED TO HIDE IT ANYMORE. I’M NOT ASHAMED THAT I ALWAYS FEEL SO MUCH.
I have said it before and I will say it 100 times over- always let your vulnerability teach you things about those who are more guarded than you. Your heart is so precious and you’ve been taught to give it to people, often people that don’t appreciate it or deserve it. But just know, thats just a small part of what makes us different than a lot of people, we give and give, and give some more until we don’t feel there is anything else left to give- then we give a littllleee more.
But why? Why do we continue to be transparent in every aspect of our lives? Because we are the ones who appreciate affirmation and acknowledgment from the ones as authentic and vulnerable as we are trying to be.
We are the ones who aren’t fulfilled by the vast number of people in our lives, but by the ones who are grateful for every mindful, and intentional decision you’ve ever made, and thats why we continue to delve so deep into the most raw parts of ourselves.